A Living Testimony
by David Ewart
STOP PLAYING WITH
SIN!
[To PRECIOUS
TESTIMONIES: I read your advertisement in the Charisma Marketplace, November 1998
issue. Your ad caught my eye, why? I do not know. I prayed and I felt that I was to send
you my testimony. At the present time, I am the inmate pastor at the prison chapel. God is
in the restoration business. I know...I am being restored every day. I pray for my
children and the rest of my family that I have hurt beyond belief. You do have my
permission to use my testimony in whatever way you feel will glorify the name of Jesus
Christ.]
My incarceration is the direct
result of my sin, not one great huge sin, by a change of my behavior. It took Satan time
to destroy my value system and my strong beliefs. My temptation, subsequently my fall from
grace, was like the frog that is placed in cool water with a very low flame under the
container, as time goes by, the water heats up and the frog is cooked, never knowing what
happened!
I am incarcerated in a California prison, with a sentence of 34 years to life. The first
time that I will be eligible for the parole board, will be the year 2015, which at that
time I will be 71 years old. I am a first time offender.
My heart feels concern for the individuals that are hearing this testimony, is to stop
playing with sin, God will not be mocked. He will not be mocked now or tomorrow, there is
always going to be a consequence for your sin. I do not care how smart you think you are,
He is much smarter. I do not care how clever you are, He is more clever. I do not care
what your IQ is, He created your IQ!
My crime of murder was committed in 1993, 17 years after I had given my heart to Jesus
Christ. After my conversion, I sold my clothing business in Southern California, and went
to Bible College and Graduate School. I felt I had been "Called" into the
ministry. I grew in human knowledge about the "Word of God" and the vocabulary
that goes with being a Christian. There were times that I could hear His voice and great
signs and wonders happened around me. My family and I would pray and doors would open,
people called us the "perfect" family. After my graduation from Graduate School,
I became a schoolteacher and a lay minister. For years I followed this path.
Then I let Satan rob my joy. Through some circumstances that are not important now, I
became bitter towards the Church. I had taken my eyes off of Jesus and became very
prideful in my accomplishments. I felt I could do it on my own, why couldn't I, I was an
educated man, who was a teacher and a minister? I even made it to the ranks of college
professor, I was teaching in a graduate school at the time of my arrest.
My two beautiful children had both grown and married. My wife and I had just celebrated
our 26th wedding anniversary. I had been faithful for all those years. Then, while I was
at a conference, the oldest story in the world happened to me - older man meets younger
woman. It was infatuation from the first moment we laid eyes on each other. It seemed we
had everything in common. We talked and talked for the duration of the conference, which
was one week long.
We both were married and not happy in our relationships with our spouses. My mind ran with
the emotional and fulfilling attention that she poured out on me. I had in my mind, made
myself like a sponge for any type of attention. I had changed my beliefs! I told myself
that I owed myself a new relationship. What deception!
I never committed physical adultery with her, but my mind certainly did. We lived about
800 miles apart, so we only saw each other three times face to face in the next eight
months. However, we did communicate almost every day via phone or fax. My thought patterns
were being readjusted as the time went on. I had considered divorce, but then my Christian
values would kick in. This was a time of extreme anguish and I thought I had lost my mind.
I was truly the double-minded man that James talks about in his letter in the New
Testament of the Bible. I had such an inner battle going on, I felt I was going to explode
at any time.
As time continued I became more and more confused about who I was, the whole time thinking
that I was on tope of things, talk about deception! Remember, I knew what the Word of God
said about marriage, temptation, sin and adultery. Even though I never committed the
physical act of adultery with this woman, it still had me taking my wife's' life.
My consciousness (The Holy Spirit) of the situation finally came to a point of decision.
For the first time in months I prayed and I felt the Lord tell me to confess my sin to my
wife and repent for my behavior. I did, we argued, she is dead!
I know my thought patterns are what controlled my behavior. I left myself wide open for
satanic attack. I did not resist. There is no one to blame except myself. I am not looking
for sympathy, I want to express how important it is to keep your eyes on the Lord. We are
under attack all the time. Our society has become obsessed with sexual pleasure. It seems
no matter that where you turn you are bombarded with individuals selling sexual pleasure.
If I were with you right now, I would have an altar call for men to come forth and repent.
I would ask the Father to give us the strength as men to stand with integrity. I would
challenge us to make a commitment to our wives and family, to be the Priest of our homes,
and to study the Word of God and be convicted by the Holy Spirit.
Yes I have lost everything that was dear to me. My two grown children do not communicate
with me. I have never seen or touched any of my grandchildren; I have three and one on the
way! I robbed my children of ever being kissed or hugged by their mother. I robbed my
grandchildren of ever knowing their grandmother. I have lost all my material wealth. I
have lost almost every friend that I had. I have lost contact with almost all of my
family.
But I now know who Jesus Christ is! He came to my cell and forgave me of my sins. He set
me free, inside! He called me again to preach His mighty message. I now have a captive
audience here in prison. He has called me twice now; He will not have to call me again. I
have received the invitation into my heart.
I pray that my testimony will help just one person not to make the same mistake that I
did, to think that your sins would not be found out. Remember that God will not be mocked!
If you do not believe me, read the Bible, it is full of God's judgment on disobedient
people all through history.
In His Love & Service,
David Ewart (J-51636)
CMC-East (8202)
P.O. Box 8101
San Luis Obispo, CA 93409-8101
NOTE FROM THE EDITOR [of Precious Testimonies]: Readers of this testimony are encouraged
and invited to correspond with David Ewart at the above address. He welcomes your comments
or questions about anything concerning his testimony and about God.
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