After that, most of my life I had been a good girl. My mom always told me I was the best one of the bunch. Until I turned 17. I had an much older girlfriend that my parent's trusted with me. One night I was spending the night at her house and they offered me alcohol. I knew I should have said no, but you know, at that age you think it is so cool. Well it hit me like a ton of bricks. My friend thought this was so funny. I had no idea what I was doing. They had a man friend over who I wound up sleeping with. Biggest mistake of my life. The next day he was in jail for raping another woman. I took this really hard. I started to go crazy with guilt. I always wanted to be a virgin when I got married. I started getting these severe headaches. Drs could not find anything wrong with me. So, my next stop was a mental institution for 2 weeks. My mother and father had no idea what was going on with me. All the therapy really did me no good. It finally took my mother to get it out of me. God bless her heart, she was so sweet to me. After I had gotten that unloaded, I was on my way home and to healing all the hurts I had inside. After this I got saved. Praise the Lord!!!!! It took Him to finally help me to forgive myself.
Three years later I married my husband. He was my high school crush. How many girls can honestly say that they married their crushes? It was the best day of my life. Two years later our son arrived. He almost did not make it, so I really cherish every day that I have with him.
Two years later I had to have a hysterectomy due to cervical cancer. I was crushed. We wanted another baby so bad. It was rough. Having to go through that so young. But God helped me heal. I know now I am very grateful for the son that I do have.
August 97 I was diagnosed
with cancer. Depression hit me really hard. Was about as down as a girl can get. Suicide
thoughts ran through my head. But thanks to my wonderful preacher he saved me from making
a very big mistake. I also have degenerative joint disease in my knee. This is where the
bones deteriorate. I am getting ready to go for another cancer surgery on Thursday. But I
can honestly say God does know what He is doing. I was crushed when I was diagnosed, but
having cancer has made me appreciate life so much more. I am truly grateful for each day I
have. Having cancer has made me a much stronger person.
For all of you out there that think you just can't go on, I am living proof that you can. Praise God for all of my blessings.
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